As all of the holiday ado is done, resolutions have been made, and folks get back on their daily grind, I decided to stop for a moment and think...how do I begin my New Year? Do resolve to budget better...to take on a hobby...to be less busy...to curse less...to exercise more...to diet? I mean, that's what most people do right? When I woke up yesterday, I thought about it a bit...and then I called my good friend T---that's when the dust settled. I will begin this New Year dealing with Matters of the Heart.
I moved to Kentucky 2 years, 3 months, and 1 day ago. As I reflect upon my life during that period, I realize that although gradual, a sort of transformation has, and is taking place. I'm not the person I used to be. Given the chain of events in the past couple of months, I had to stop and ask myself..."How would Tera a year ago have handled it? Tera 2 years ago?" It was then that I realized that I am not the same, negative, impulsive, aggressive, chronic complaining, and sometimes nasty person that I once used to be. Now don't get me wrong, I am a good person by nature, and there are dozens of people in my social circle who can attest to that. It's just that there were times in my life and certain events (many of you have read about and/know about quite a few) which required me to build a wall and pour concrete around my heart.
I know it is a process, but it was 2 years, 3 months, and 1 day ago that I began to chisel away.
Today, I know that I am a better person...I feel like a better person. Self is a matter of continuous improvement, and I am sure that my esteem (which had at one point hit an all-time low) will improve tremendously as I deal with this particular matter of the heart---Self.
In comments, your thoughts? Your New Year's Resolutions?