Tuesday, September 25, 2007

I Cried Last Night

The world has just come crashing in
Does anyone else feel this way?
I barely have one dime to spend
Who’d have thought I’d see this day?
We’re at war; the economy is shot; and our country bleeds
Guns are legal; murder is leisure, what an atrocity.

State taxes are the highest they’ve been
Gas prices are such a shame.
Foreclosures galore, we can’t feed the poor
Hmm, what was our President’s name?
The school system is questionable; some teachers don’t care; and some parents don’t do their part
Young children are on drugs; our sons are in jail…this just breaks my heart.

With a plethora of things going on, guess what’s on my mind?
It’s not clarity or a solution…it’s my HEART I’m trying to find.
I’m not happy at work; 3 jobs make it harder; and I would like much more time with my kids
To have a companion and actually be happy…oh my, Heaven forbid.

I’m stressed out like crazy; I can’t eat or sleep (at night)…what is wrong with me?
I sleep all day long and don’t want to be bothered…please just leave me be!
I’m not getting younger, I’ve lost all hope…wait who is that at the door?
Love? Ha! Love, who needs love? Love doesn’t live here anymore.

I cried last night because I feel so alone in this cold and dark little place
I cried last night because our problems are bigger than what put the tears on my face.
So why can’t I focus and get out of self long enough to see?
Why can’t I understand today that the problem’s much bigger than me?
I cried last night for personal reasons, and selfish…yeah I may be.
I cried last night because I’m dying inside and want badly to be free.


Dagromm said...

I'm glad I bring out the best in you. I tend to have this effect on women.

Tera said...

Dagromm~You are such a riot! Yeah, you do da damn thang!

Susan said...

Love does live there. It's just a different kinda love...Self love, love for your children..


Tera said...

Susan~DEFINITELY for the children...for myself is still up in the air, but I'm getting there! Thanks Susan :)

fringes said...

It'll all come together. Crying helps a lot. Screaming at the universe always helps.

Tera said...

Fringes~Thanks! Excuse me while I commence screaming :)

NoRegrets said...

Although I used to do it in the past, comparing your problems to others' or the state of the world's problems just isn't fair to yourself.

Tera said...

Noregrets~Point well taken sister!

Nance said...

If we compare our problems to others', we can usually come up short. So, take your time to wallow, then you'll do what you always do: you'll suck it up and pick one thing to work on and work on it. Then move on.

It's only if you can't stop wallowing that you/we need to worry. Let us know.

Kofi said...

I've definitely gone through a few valleys on my way to the peaks. It passes. Sending positive thoughts your way I am.

heather said...

i'm with nance, prioritize the things you want to change that you have in your power to change. start at the top and work your way down one at a time.


Anonymous said...

Oh my goodness. I just really want to give you a hug right now.

Or us get a sitter, and head to the mall for a mani/pedi. Almost always works for me.

Seriously, though. Hugs your way. And sometimes crying helps. Go for the Ugly Cry, girl. Then come on down to Texas and live next to me.

Anali said...

This reminds me of a Dorothy Parker poem. I guess we all go through these periods when things seem pretty bleak, but it's good to know that the feelings will pass and even though all will not be exactly right with the world, you will feel better about it eventually.

Nina said...

this is just too much.

Nina said...

I'll be back later.

Tera said...

Nance~Your words are too kind.

Kofi~Thanks a million!

Heather~You guys are right...I have been praying and praying for the wisdom and the will.

D Dub~Thanks for the chuckle :)

Anali~I am sure...I have faith

Nina~I meant to warn you! I know your emotions are amuck!

Flyinfox_SATX said...

Here is hoping you are feeling better today. C'mon over to my blog and laugh awhile...that is why its there. It will help you look for the positive.


Shawn said...

There's nothing wrong with crying sometimes... tell it like it is.

Tera said...

Shawn~And I did!