Hodge Podge III

Well finally, the avatar madness is over! And who woulda thunk it'd be "Girl (With Boobage) On Cell Phone?" It was a close race with "Mermaid in Thought..." as the latter seemingly fit my blog title more since she appears to be pondering. Or does the prevailing avatar qualify for the perusing vote...meaning guys get past the boobage and recognize the poinsettia in the background...and she has on a sleeveless shirt...must be a warm climate.


Anyways, in the Life and Times of Tera, I have been recently faced with a dilemma. How old is too old for a "significant other?" I recently met a really nice guy, and I am totally convinced that hadn't he told me his age, things would be different (other than the pisstivity involved had he been dishonest)!!! He has asked me on several dates since meeting me, which I have gone on two, but I just can't help but wondering if it looks like I'm having dinner with my dad??? I mean technically, a guy CAN be a daddy at 13 right? I mean he is just a few years younger than my mother! I mean...okay, to hell with it...I will let you guys have at it.

As the middle class in this society ceases to exist, I wonder how fair it is that gas prices are rising, child care costs as much as the average mortgage payment, and cereal is soaring near and or at around $5/box!!! Where is the motivation to get ahead in this life if the more you make, the more prone you are to be in Wednesday's soup line?

It's almost time for school to start back, and I LOATHE school shopping!!! I mean why in the hell do they need 2 each (ROYGBIV---don't get it twisted) of pocket folders, a ton of glue sticks, 3 boxes of tissues, and get this...a disposable camera! Glade plug-ins are on the "wish list..." I'll tell you what, unless I can file the rest of the class on my taxes, they know where they can shove this said wish list!

In other news, STRESS is kicking my ass! I lost 5 lbs in the past week (I'm not proud since stress isn't a healthy way to lose weight)!!! My job is driving me crazy, and the work load is piling up! How in the hell am I supposed to find time to blog?!?!?

Why can't I hit the lottery? I suppose one of the prerequisites is actually PLAYING the lottery, but who in the hell needs the middle step(s)?

I also see that Colonix is taking the nation over by storm...sorry, but I won't be posting pictures of my BM's on a website for the entire world to see! Um ewwww...that's hurlage (I made that word up)!

In comments...what's going on in your worlds, what's on your mind, and when did Ex-Lax lose it's popularity?

Off To The Polls!

Hello All! I would like to start by expressing my deepest gratitude for those of you who submitted avatar photos! Since there are so many wonderful possibilities, I figured I'd post them and open the floor for a vote. Now I must admit...I am torn between a couple, so please put some thought into your votes...hopefully, I don't have to overthrow the democracy ;)

The Rules:

1) Please choose 3 and rank them in order, number 1 being the favoritest.
2) Votes must be submitted by 5 p.m. (EST) on Thursday, July 19th
3) Have Fun!!!

Here they are in no particular order of submission...assume the numbering to be 1-20 respectively:

In comments, cast your votes, and try to be even more clever by justifying your decision and does anyone else need an avatar?

This is so exciting, as I am just days away from having an avatar!!!

Tuesday Thumper?

After much consideration, and internal debate, I decided against the little "right shoulder voice" and decided to proceed with this post. We haven't posted "bunnies" in a while, so....

*Nance please accept my apologies as I know that you do not like posts that have a sexual connotation to them, but along with feeling a little "frisky" today, I felt that it was my civic duty, and inherent responsibility to maintain my "R" rating on this blog.*

In comments...why hasn't anyone posted a bunny in so long, anyone else feeling "frisky (I like that word)," and how to reduce my Post-Post Dissonance.

P.S. Only a few days left for Avatar submissions before I present what I have to the group for a vote. Thanks again, to those of you who have obliged my request thus far!

STILL No Takers?!?!?!

All right people...I am losing my patience with you! I have graciously solicited your thoughts and/ideas for an Avatar, and no one...not even one of you have been kind enough to offer a suggestion. *Wiping tear* I have even hinted around to it by some of my recent posts as I feel confident that when you think, "Tera" some image MUST come to mind!!!

*Sigh* I am disappointed...and feeling about as left out as I feel about not being in Heather's side bar and I'm supposed to be a part of the female Quad!!!!! *Wink*

In your comments...Am I being silly? "Tera, find your own damned Avatar?" or "Tera, you look just fine as the blank space that you are..."

P.S. Even I had to chuckle at this post...the first time I must have smiled in days!!!

More Afraid Now Than Ever

On June 6th, Fringe had a post called "Choose Your Story." I put a nutshell "My Life" story on there because I chose to write about my "Fear." I present it to you in today's post, because there is an update on it, and given my emotional state right now, I decided to actively include you all as you always have a way of giving me good advice, providing many points view, and cheering me up:

My life wasn’t cookies and cream. My mother was a crack addict off and on (on more than off) for 16 years, and my grandmother raised me for the most part. And through the stealing my money, selling things given to me, and 2-week disappear acts, I had to struggle with the fact that she still claimed and professed to love me.

She got arrested and was given an ultimatum…prison or treatment…she chose the latter. After being released, she remained sober for 2 1/2 years (and was the best grandmother ever) and I finally knew what it was like to have a HEALTHY relationship with my mother…until she met my younger sister’s dad, who for the sake of saying his name, I will call him the Devil…she relapsed.

Both of my sisters (we were born at 11-year increments) were born with problems due to her addiction. By the time she was 9 months pregnant with Angel, she opted for sobriety again. I felt for sure she’d be okay because she CHOSE to go and wasn’t MANDATED to go…she is 7 years, 4 months, and 4 days sober (7 years, 5 months and 3 days now).

Of course during the course of those years, she has been in a relationship for 4 of them with a man she met in the “Program (whom we’ve grown to love and adore).” But admittedly, I always had a fear about her dating someone who was on the wagon too, because what if their strength wasn’t equal (or his greater) in magnitude? What if she does the same thing she did when she was with the Devil?

Last week, I get a call from my mom…her significant other has relapsed after 5 years of sobriety…Fear puts it lightly.

Now for the update...

Remember my kids are home with my mom for the summer...Well, my sister informed me while they were here for the 4th of July that my mom has been allowing him to spend the night at the house when he cries and for increments of 5-10 minutes wants to be sober again. My mother is being dishonest about it, which in AA shows signs that she's weakening...

Your thoughts?

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